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An Open Letter to the Girl with Vitiligo Giving Up on Love

An Open Letter to the Girl with Vitiligo Giving Up on Love


To the girl with vitiligo giving up on love:

I have had vitiligo since I was five years old, when a cut healed into a white patch and began to spread over my body. Today, at 21, I have vitiligo all over my body, mostly on my arms back and legs. I received a lot of bullying from other children at school and even from random strangers who would make comments in the supermarkets or even restaurants. As the years went on I slowly grew more comfortable in my own skin, however, I still have my bad days where I feel frustrated because I am wearing long sleeves on a 90 degree day because I am too self-conscious to wear a tank top. Or the feeling I get in my stomach when I meet someone new and they make a comment about my skin in a room full of people.

Currently, I am the social media manager for the Vitiligo Research Foundation and it has given me the ability to connect with people who also have vitiligo from all around the world. I find the most comfort in meeting others who share the same experiences in dealing with vitiligo. I love hearing their stories and connecting over experiences that are specific to the Vitiligo community. The VRF now has over 5,000 followers (@vrfoundation_) and seeing a community of people who look just like me and have a similar story is something that is indescribable.

My boyfriend, Matt, and I first met in the ninth grade in history class. I found out he “liked” me through a friend of a friend and we started getting to know each other but drifted apart and re-connected in 11th grade. Our connection was stronger than ever right from the start. Matt has always been special to me. I guess when people say “you just have this feeling,” they aren’t lying. We would text until 3 a.m., go on dates, talk on the phone, attend each other’s’ sports games, walk to class together… you know, the usual high school stuff, until we finally became official.

Since my skin is very noticeable, I decided to have an open conversation about it soon after we became official. I told him that it was called vitiligo, explained what it was, talked about the treatments I had done for it and how it has affected me. And for the first time in a long time, I felt happy because a guy that I had feelings for was truly listening. Even before I addressed my skin, Matt said that he had already accepted it and thought I was beautiful. I get very anxious talking about my vitiligo with most people but with Matt, I can have an open and honest conversation about anything. I guess that’s one of the many reasons why I love him and am so incredibly thankful for him.

Sandra and her boyfriend Matt.

In complete honesty, I never thought that I would find someone who would love me for who I am. I never thought that I would find someone who was proud to have me as their girlfriend and who wasn’t ashamed to be with the girl “with the weird skin.”

How could someone love me if I couldn’t even love myself? Some other guys I was briefly with never really accepted my skin. I don’t know if this was pure immaturity but I really didn’t care to hear their excuses. I didn’t deserve to be with someone who was ashamed of me having vitiligo. What was I thinking? Why would I make excuses for them?

I do believe that there is someone out there made completely for you. Someone who loves you just the way you are and doesn’t want to change anything about you. It was hard to find someone as amazing as Matt but I knew I wasn’t going to give up on love that easily. Good people are out there and they will love you for every single thing that makes you, YOU. I have always found that you meet the best people when you least expect it. Don’t give up on love or yourself.

Sandra Reese

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  • That is an inspiring article. I have vitiligo too and I have been talking to this guy and it is long distance. I think he likes me but I have not told him about my vitiligo yet and I am not sure how to go about telling him and what to tell him 🙁 I feel that since he always had very attractive looking girls in his life , he would find this overwhelming and not want to pursue this any further

    • Sangeeta, thanks for the comment! We’ve been there – it’s hard to know when and how to bring up vitiligo when you’re dating. Don’t you think that if he’s not into your skin, he’s not the right guy though? You deserve a guy who loves you, spots and all. And there are plenty of guys out there who see past our spots. Just a thought.

    • I completely understand how you feel. I spend all of my day covering up with long sleeve and pants. I don’t have the patches on my face and you wouldn’t think I have vitiligo. Only my family and close friends (4 to be exact) know I have vitiligo and even them are uncomfortable when they see my patches because I cover it up mostly. I have never had a relationship because I am afraid to show someone who I am and how do you tell someone.

      Sadly I am not that strong person who says I love my patches because I don’t it took away my childhood and now it’s taking away the rest of my life. I have learned to accept it, but I don’t know how to introduce myself to the world a girl with a vitiligo…

  • Hi Sandra,
    Your story is very inspiring. I too have vitiligo since the age of 10 and my parents too have it. It was tough to accept this earlier and often use to question ‘why me’, but things change when my boyfriend couldn’t stand up for me. That was the time when I decided to get my life together and take a pride in who I am. Today, I am a happier and a confident person. Though yes, I am still waiting for the special one.. hopefully I’ll also meet someone like you did. Again thank you for the inspiration. More power!

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